My weekend

Not much during the week since I last wrote a blog. I did go over to immigration and I got my extension. There was some misunderstandings between Kelly Jessica, Katie and I. They don't seem to understand why we got upset and were stressing out. It's too much trouble. Anybody out there thinking of doing anything like this anywhere else in the world my suggestion is to make sure that you have your work Visa before you go. A lot of the stress I've had to deal is because I don't have my work visa yet. When we were heading to immigration Jessica told us not saying anything about working the past month and she was worried because we have had all our documents processed and approved for our work visas.

On Thursday, I had a good laugh. Erik had just finished doing the days of the week. I asked Robert if he was sure tomorrow will be Friday and he just kinda stared at me. He wasn't sure what to answer or probably even think.

Friday was a little rough. The craft was a little hard for them. We made alphabet snakes. Katie and I combined class again. It was hard for some of them because they haven't learned all the letters yet. It also had a lot of cutting. However they all got through it. On Friday, Alice was so cute she had her hair in pigtails. her hair is shorter than mine so they stood up. Very cute you'll have to see the pictures. I also got a card from Hilda. I had been waiting for it all week. I love to get mail. If you send me mail, I'll send you mail.

Saturday, I didn't do too much. I went back to guy that I buy DVDs from because season 2 and 4 of The Office didn't work. He gave me new ones and it turns season 2 doesn't work. I'm being to think that this is his plan to get you to come back and buy more. I wanted to buy Step Brothers from him, but he wouldn't sell it to he kept saying bad copy cell phone, but he sold it to a Korean, so that means he must sell the good stuff to the Americans.

Sunday, I didn't go to church. I don't know if I like the church. Instead I went to Insa-dong with Katie and Kristen. It's a street market kinda thing. It had a lot of trandional stuff. Then we went over to Gyeongbokgung Palace. This is the largers Palace in Seoul. It was great. It was beautiful. I walked away from Kristen and Katie. I kinda felt like a third wheel. Sometimes I even felt like I was by myself. So I wonder by myself. It was really beautiful. I'll post pictures this week. I had some Korean girls come up to me and ask to take a picture with them. It was a little weird. I'm not a big deal, just a Westerner, nothing special. After I was done at the Palace there was an art musuem next door. I went over there and looked around.

I had many reasons for leaving America and coming to Korea. One reason was that I thought I wouldn't be able to teach anywhere else. I felt like I was the biggest failure. My first two years of teaching were so awful. I almost didn't even go into teaching. I felt too horrible. I also thought I shouldn't teach anymore. I know this is wrong. I just shouldn't teach at underperforming schools. I think Jackie was right when she said I should teach at a private school for awhile. I'm sure she didn't have this in mind. I'm a good teacher.

Another reason to leave, I felt like I had lost myself and who I was. I was confused about who I was and about things going on in my life. I've learned that it wasn't that I was lost. It was more like buried. The real me was underneath what everyone else wanted me to be. I was hidden under expections of those around me. I really had no idea what was important to me. I was trying to fill the shoes that other people wanted me to fill. I was really unsure about a lot of things that make me who I am. Now I see, that I'm happy when I'm not trying to be what other expect. Nobody has expections of me. Nobody here looks at me and thinks I should be this or do that. It's really freeing. In this past month, I've learned a lot about me. I think that only person who I should work to please competely is myself. I know that if make sure, I enjoy who I am, and like who I am. One of two things will happen, I'll be liked for the reasons I want people to liked, or they won't. If someone doesn't like me, do I really want to keep them around? I don't think I do. I don't need to be this imprissive person. I am good person. I can say that for the most part everything I do and say, my heart is the right place. I've learned that instead of trying to be someone I am not, instead of trying to make people like me and be who they think I should be or if I need to do something to get their attention, I should just walk away. Somethings just aren't worth the time or effort. People just need to look at all the aspects, not just surface. I have a feeling some people think I get overly excited and happy about things. I don't think I do. God gave me a life to enjoy it. If I'm happy and excited I show it. I don't care if I look stupid. This is the way I see. I see lost of people unhappy and never get excited about anything. They also don't have God in their life. I look at the things that make me happy as a blessing, which is what they are. Blessing are God's way of telling me that He loves me. It's like a couple of years ago my parents got me an ipod video. I would have been happy with an ipod. I was very excited and those of you that know me know how much I love my ipod. It goes to the ends of the earth and back with me. My parents gave it to because they love me and they are proud of me. It's the same thing with God. A normal day is like an ipod, a day with something special is like an ipod video. Wow, I'm getting wise. I asked for it, I shouldn't be surpised.

I think the most important thing I've learned this past month is this: my mother does love me. She cares for me. It has hard to see but now because of the distance I see it. That's another thing I've learned is distance mangifies things. I love my Aunts in North Dokata but now I miss them. If you want to see how you really feel about things put distance between them. I mean large distance. People I thought I really meant a lot to me either mean more to me, or less. The college group I didn't think was too important, just a group of kids to have bible study with. (Sorry Jesse). Now that I am here, I find that I think about them and what they are doing. I see people post pictures on facebook and myspace. Some of them it makes me sad because I relieze that they mean something to me. I felt very Amor sick (kind like homesick) after looking at pictures of Lyndsie and Chelsea visiting Jeff and Leona. It made me see where these people are in my heart even though I see them for about a week once a year. I've gone on long enough.