I must admit

Let me start with a declaimer. You do not have to read this. I'm in need of an outlet and as most of you have learned this is where I outlet.

For the most part, I don't miss James a lot. Most days, I'm so busy with teaching and every other weekend, I'm at the Turners'. However there are some days, where that is all I do is miss him. I feel that way today. I think 6 months is far away and I can't possibly wait that long to be with him. I very much want to be him. He makes me feel special and loved. He does it well from AL, but I liked it more when he was here. It's better. I try to tell myself that it's only 6 months. It's under 200 days, it's not that long. But it doesn't matter, I want to be near him and close to him. I would like it if he could hold me right now.

So yea, it's hard to be away from the one you love with all your heart.