Waiting offline

I know I have been off line for a while and there is a good reason, and I'll get to that. First let's go back to the last time I blogged.
1/30 We went sledding. It was fun. On the first run down. Alice ended up on the bottom of a pile up. I left my sled and hers on the hill to take care of her. Ellis was also in the pile up and we left her sled too, but she seemed fine. I felt a little bad. I saw Jennifer teacher wasn't getting a sled. I figured she would go down with Alice, but she didn't ride at all. The second time Alice rode with me. Everyn ticked me off a little. She told Alice to get on the sled, but Alice, wouldn't. I had set down our sled and left her standing by it while I got my other students settled on their sleds. I knew wouldn't sit until I did, so I left her. Everyn got upset with her, but Alice just stood there until I got on the sled.
1/31 I didn't really do anything.
2/1 I went to church. I went to What the Book and met Jason. Sue Young went with me. I found a tour book on Europe. Then Jason and I had dinner at the Hard Rock. After that we went over to Yongsan and I picked up some dvd's.
2/2 The week of Parent Teacher Confernces. I only meet with Eric, Tommy and Daniel.
2/6 I meet with Jason for dinner. We hung out and then we went home.
2/7 Amber, Sue and I attempted to go sledding, but failed. We went looking for a sledding hill, but didn't find it. Amber and I went to singles. It was a quite Saturday. Teawon, Danny and Jon showed up. They're Koreans. Amber and I didn't go out for dinner, we just stayed in. It was a nice quite evening with Pastor and Gayle.
2/8 I went to church. It was a good service. Afterwards, this large group went to Hard Rock. It was Melissa's last Sunday. I sat with Mary Beth and she had invited James. He is very nice guy. Afterwards, James and I went to Coldstone. James walked me to church for a meeting about India.
2/10 I met Jason and his co teacher and we sat and talked. We had a good time. His co teacher said I was really nice and sweet.
2/13 It was a long day. Katie had left, so I had to cover one of her class and taught without my hour break that I normally get. I went up to the Yongsan base. Mary Beth invited to a bible study on base. It was a nice a little group and I had a nice time.
2/14 I called my parents. I went to Katie's apartment and cleaned out the stuff I wanted. Then I went to the Korean House, The Village nearby and another palace. The palace had an art musuem on its grounds.
2/15 I got up and went to church. Afterwards I had lunch with James. I took James up to Gyeongbuk palace, but it closed. So we walked around the palace museum. He is very sweet guy. We walked around Insa dong, and then went to the movies. He is very sweet and puts up with my Michelleness very well.

The lack of internet came from a choose I made. I had felt this tugging at my art. I wanted to know God better. I put the internet aside and spent time reading things. I read books written by great Christian authors. I read my bible. I got back in the habbit of reading my deviontionals. I learned about who God is and what He has done. I have learned that he made the choice. He could have found another way, but he choose to do it through Christ. I've been a little out of focus, a little off key, a little short sighted. I wasn't focus on where I need to focus. So I took the time to refocus. I wanted to seek my God. When you seek God the great thing about it is that He lets you find him. Along my walk around Seoul on Saturday we talked. I asked God what was the problem between Him and I. He respond that it was me. I am not allowed to demand things from Him. He knows my needs, my wants and my desires. He will meet them. He will take care of all of them. However, He will do it as He see fits. He will do it in his time. Wait is just as much an answers as yes and no. Just because He says wait doesn't mean He isn't going to give to me, I am not ready to hear the answer. I have to change my heart before I am ready to hear the answer. The things that are in limbo are that way for reason. The things that don't make sense, is because I only have a part of the puzzle and will someday all fall into place. So I wait.