I don't want to blog

I'm not really in the mood to blog. I'm very contemplative today. I have a lot on my mind, and I don't think that I can share it all. I feel that if I share everything, someone might get upset at me. I just have a lot going on the inside right now and don't really have anywhere to release it. The week well.
I had to give test this week and fill out report cards. I didn't really enjoy that. I had forgotten how to figure percents, but after much struggling with the number I got it. I had to give report cards to kids I've only been teaching for two months, which I think is a little crazy. It was for elementary too, so it was for kids I don't see everyday.
Halloween was Friday. We had a lot of fun with the kids. We bobbed for apples, craved pumpkins, played games and had a parade. We did something similar for the elementary kids too. I wore a fairy custom the school had ordered. Friday night I went out with Jason and Johnny. We went to place in Hongdea, but it wasn't any good, so we went over to Iteawon. On the subway ride, a man told us to be quiet, but we didn't. Jason and Johnny and I danced the night away.
Saturday was singles. I made a pasta salad. It was pretty good. We stayed again this week. Amber made breakfast for dinner. She did a good job. It was very good. Then we played cards. After cards we talked the night. I enjoying going over to Pastor's. I feel like I'm in a family over there. We act a lot like a family does. We encourage each other, we say mean things to each other, we laugh and have a good ole time. The plus side to staying at Pastor's is that it is only a short bus ride to church, so it is easier to get up and go to church.
I went to church. I really like Pastor Dan and SIBC. It's a good church. I had play practice afterwards. So after church, I grabbed a small lunch and headed over to the other church. I practice the play. Afterwards, Amanda, Hun and I went to the movies. Hun is Korean. He was very nice and Amanda and I enjoyed having him along. He tried to teach us some Korean. Amanda did more learning than I did. Hun told us he didn't have any classes, so if we wanted to go see something he would be our guide. I picked a palace and he said he would like to go there, so this weekend we will meet at the subway station.
Part of the things on my mind are how I'm not going to be home for Christmas or Thanksgiving. The past two years, I've started spending Thanksgiving with my friends. Maybe I won't be so upset about missing Thanksgiving. The singles are planning a Thanksgiving dinner the last Saturday in November. That will still be with my friends. I'll have a bigger part in the cooking. I'm having a lot of trouble about not being at home Christmas. It is my favorite time of the year. I love all the fun stuff there is to do at that time of the year. I don't want to miss out on my dad's birthday. I really like picking out a Christmas tree. It is so much fun. The play is on the 13th. I think the only reason, I let Jason talk me into doing it was in hopes, that if I were busy and my thoughts were consumed with something else, I wouldn't think about not buying a tree with my family, or missing my dad's birthday. It's so hard to be away for Christmas. I can't help but think of things I'm missing out on. I'm thinking I'll go to Thailand with Jason and Amber. They have plans on going, so I might join them. It depends on the cost.
I'm also trying to come to terms with the things God has called me to do. I feel that when I'm done in Korea and get to go home, it'll only be for visit and I'll have somewhere else to go. I feel like I have two major things when I get home. One is to find a new home for Martio. That's right Michelle is giving up Martio. It's the one thing in the world, that I love the most, means the most, care the most about, and miss the most. For those of that don't know, that liffle black dog, and I were insepareble. I had lots of trouble leaving her behind. I told one of my friends, that I almost change my mind about going because the person, I wanted to take my dog had said no. I had told her that I prayed that God would change his mind and he would take my dog. God did change his mind and Jim takes great care of my dog. I'm sure Martio is very happy. However when I get home she's going on Craig's list. The other thing, I'm giving up is Project Barnabas. That's another hard to give up. Those that know, it's pretty much the only thing on my mind after the first of the year. I'm get really happy and excited at the end up April. This has been on the greatest things in my life. I feel like Amor is family. It's just as important to me as anything at RPBC. I think fondly of those people. The thought of one last spring breaks my heart, but that is the way it is looking.
I have two things, I've been thinking about doing. Both of them other people have suggest I do. I've had two suggest I get a job teaching on a Base. Kerry didn't have any Base. She said I should just pick any country. My grandfather thinks I should go teach on the one of the Bases in Germany. However his reasons for picking Germany might be a little selfish. I think he wants to travel with his daughter. The other idea that has come up, is going to be with Dinahs for awhile. I was talking with Amanda and she said I should go. I'll think about it.