A little Discouraged

I had a little discouragement. Katie moved into her apartment and it's on the small side. Small meaning the house build in mexico are bigger. I know this shouldn't discourage me, but we had other things pile on us. There aren't teacher guides, so that's a little discouraging. Makes it a little hard to plan, but I'm trying. Then Erick (another teacher) informed us that girl he replaced left because they wouldn't pay her because she didn't have her visa. I don't have my visa yet. Little more discouraging. Katie e-mailed Joan (she is the lady from HoyaEnglish) with our concerns in hopes that she will help us out. However she can't do anything until Monday because it is the weekend. I've trouble planning because that shattered confindence is coming back to haunt me. Why should I plan because I can't teach anyways? You aren't as good as think, so why bother? It's been a little rough, but I think I can do this. I hope I can do this.

This morning I got up this morning and went through my quiet time. One of my devotional books is Women of the Bible and I've just started so it's talking about Eve. One thing it pointed out was that after Eve and Adam ate the fruit, God proved clothes for them. If God proved clothes after they sinned, what will God do for me and He is the one who told me to come here? Why should I be downcast? God will take care of me. So after reading Woman of the Bible, I read The One Year Book of Hope. It had my read Lamentations. I read it and wrote down the verses that had meaning to me. Lame. 3:21-24 Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed for his compassion never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulllness. I say to myself "The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him."

So some other things about my stay. Katie and I kinda feel like we aren't in the world. We are kind of in on little world with very little interaction with the outside. This is mostly likely because we don't know the language. However we have decide that it is ok to feel this because we have each other. If we were here alone it might bother us. Next that things are different here. We see people in these pj that belong in the hostipal but are allowed to go out in public. There is this guy with an IV, he looks sick and like he should be in a hostipal but he wonders the streets smoking. It's just not normal. Out of all the people we have seen in the pjs he seems to be the sickest, the rest of them it's not as weird that they are out other than the fact that they are in pjs. I can watch TV, however I don't really have any choices. They play movies in english a lot. Most of them are not best movies and probably would never watch them, but I don't really have a choice at this point in time. Last night I found a show that seemed interesting. It's called Sitcom English and it's on the channel that the Korean watch to learn english, but it was a good show and it was funny.